My barriers, still

While I would talk to anyone who will listen about bringing down ones barriers in order to find happiness or succes, I must admit I do not have an income at this moment and struggle to conceive of a workplace or job that would enable me, instead of hamper me.
I feel discussing new aspects of consciousness is the most important thing I can do. Next to saving the rainforest, working on the conservation of biodiversity and saving Mars from environmental destruction by the miners of the future.
Even when looking at career opportunities at Conservation International I feel like I would be put into a box, in a machinery lacking room for creative endeavours or personal initiatives.
Now that I’m writing this, I feel I cannot post this, because I might never work at CI as a result of this. Why do I think that? I believe heavily in creating the reality with my words. That is why I choose my words carefully. I make an effort of using neutral language so as to not steer the interpretation of a reader in any emotional direction.
I feel that I need to spread ‘the word’, my word. It seems very easy to do that these days. I want to spread the words of my mind, of a psycho-spiritual-techno-scientific worldview with a future for humanity, build on values and insights obtained by a receiving mindset in transit.
I want to have fun in the now. To experience what this reality has to offer.
Not only drugs, although they are a lot on my mind lately (haha).
Nice evenings, fine dining, travel, living in different countries, suppling a product or service, diving into a subject…
My aching is for a specialisation,
while everything about me speaks generalisation.
I want one, yet I fear it.
Wait a minute, here it is for the second time: it’s the same fear that jobs instil in me: fear for specialisation. It communicates a closed mind/system/experience to me. Yet it is easy to see that it is not true. Any scientist will tell you their subject is endlessly deep and when we look at the knowledge science found about reality, it sure is an endeavour that never reaches a final conclusion.
I did lately realise my thoughts need to be expressed for them to have any value at all. In that process, a balance needs to be found between crafting the thoughts into a medium (writing, as we speak), and creating, receiving, searching, experiencing new thoughts and new material. Most of my time I focus on the latter: it’s faster, more can be thought and experienced in one second than can be put into words. Writing is a cumbersome process as of yet, a necessary evil. My current writing is not a skilled crafting of a reading experience or an effort at communicating a certain point.
That, like a specialisation, would require a postion; a perspective to elaborate on, while my worldview or the point I want to make, is exactly to have none. To assume one does not fully understand, know, or can in order to give life, people, your hart, a chance to learn you something new.

Dimensies in het brein: meditatie verslag

Luisteren naar ademhaling is één ding maar het voelen van je ademnood is iets heel anders.
Aandacht is ergens niet zozeer een bepaalde energie maar een bepaalde dimensie.  Wanneer je gaat voelen, in plaats van denken, verschuif je je aandacht naar een andere dimensie. Van de cognitieve dimensie naar de sensorische dimensie.
In mijn meditatie merk ik dat ik in de cognitieve dimensie constant m’n aandacht verlies in aan mezelf uitleggen wat er gebeurt. Al dan niet om dit later te kunnen delen met anderen, voor m’n historische zelf, of voor m’n behoefte aan continuïteit. Dat, óf ik geef mezelf instructies; doe dit, laat dat, denk aan dit, niet dat, check je ademhaling, maar stuur ’em niet, etc. Ik merk een continue gewoonte om woorden te geven aan de ervaring van het moment. Om daaruit te ontsnappen onderbrak ik mezelf voorheen altijd door ‘stop’ tegen mezelf te zeggen om dan weer naar de ademhaling te gaan. Vandaag bedacht ik om in plaats daarvan van dimensie te wisselen; vanuit het reciterende aspect van mijn beleving naar het gevoeld aspect van m’n beleving.
Dit valt mooi samen met het brein model dat gepresenteerd wordt in ‘A General Theory of Love‘: de neocortex reciteert. Dit komt door met name haar taalkwabben die permanent vuren. Het emotionele brein, fysiek daaronder geplaatst, ontbreekt het aan taal, waardoor in mijn meditatie ik de gedachtestroom uit m’n beleving haal. Het model maakt inzichtelijk waarom emoties en gevoelens in het algemeen zo lastig in woorden uit te drukken zijn.
Het non-reciterende beleven geeft mij erg veel rust en maakt het makkelijker m’n aandacht op één plek te houden in m’n meditatie.
Daarnaast geeft het de relativiteit van het reciterende denken aan, wat het makkelijk maakt heilloze gedachtepatronen te doorzien en te veranderen.
Met andere woorden: het is mogelijk niet te denken en het is een bevrijdende belevenis!
Gisteren oefende ik m’n ademhaling te zien als iets wat ik ontvang. Die insteek helpt met het beleven van de ademhaling en voorkomt de neiging deze te beïnvloeden.
Het schept ook wat ruimte tussen m’n biologische zelf een m’n belevende zelf.

How to get sustainable

Sustainable living has been done. It’s not new. It’s age old. It’s probably older than language, older than thought in our species.

It’s a way of life wide spread in the natural world. I’d say most life forms have found a way to live sustainable. Humanity also contains examples of sustainable living. There are cultures who have at their foundation a wisdom-knowledge pair that runs through everything that they create and sustain on top of it.

Examples of these cultures are found here:

And here:

Because these cultures have what our culture doesn’t have, namely a narrative that informs its peoples resource utility in such a way that it is sustainable, it sounds logical to me to ask if we might learn this wisdom-knowledge pair from them.

Think of it as reverse developmental aid. We’re in the need. As a culture, we are in need of aid. Aid in our development towards a way of life that is in concert with the natural world of living organisms. Aid in social and cultural ways to transform away from rampant depression, live destroying air pollution, degenerative sicknesses, and a general disequilibrium with our environment that is the driving force behind the current man induced extinction rate that will leave the planet without 50% of it’s species by 2050.

Other cultures are ready to help. In fact, at the Rio+20 UN Summit on sustainability and the environment, help was offered:

Sonia Guajajara, of the Guajajara tribe, said, ‘We have come here to raise awareness about our fight and to show that this model of development is not realistic… We want to show the world what it really means to live sustainably. Nobody understands sustainability better than indigenous people’.


With all that in place, all we need now is a new cultural direction. An arrow in life that points towards cultural growth by immersing oneself in other cultures. Our culture needs to encourage people to leave our culture and live with a sustainable culture for a few years. It could be valued equivalent to a secondary education degree or something like that.

In the long run it accomplished two goals.

  • One, cultural wisdom and knowledge from the other culture gets mixed with our own. This trickles back into our culture.
  • Two, the other culture stays alive and its wisdom is preserved.
Underlying processes

One of humanities key features is it’s curiosity. It’s what drove us as hunter/gatherers to move around and it’s what spread our species to live and adapt to every habitat on earth. When agriculture was invented, we stopped moving but our curiosity did not. It led us towards the creation of immense mental structures that eventually developed into science, the arts, religion, and politics. It’s unstoppable force is still noticeable today. New gadgets, new likes, new apps, new technology, new frontiers, new anythings excite us like nothing else. It’s part of our species and it has driven us on the amazing trip that humanity has so far traveled.

Standing still has thus driven us into matter while not eroding our unsatisfiable thirst for new things. This is currently what cripples our planet, our health and our sanity and it is also crippling sustainable cultures. The thirst is exemplified in our cities. The city is an orgy of New. The confluence of so many goods, peoples and concepts wields a force on young minds everywhere that is irresistible. It’s not strange then that other cultures see their youngsters leaving their ancestral homes and cultures for the exciting world of city living. We’ve seen the same on our own farms and lands.

Thus sending people away from our culture, does not need to frighten us. Because of the pull of the city, people will feel attracted to it for the time to come. Plus young people from other cultures will keep joining ours. Here then, we need to create a circle. Allow me to illustrate:


Drawn in a landscape the distribution and flow of people currently looks like this:


We see one arrow. This arrow is not created intentionally by the culture. It’s an emergent property of the culture’s values, those of learning about and creating within matter. It draws people toward it’s cities. This is not sustainable. One can infer that from the omission of a recurrent pointer towards the origin of the arrow. (Because anything sustainable needs at least two arrows).  A new arrow can be intentionally created by our culture to bring it into balance:


In this picture we project an arrow from our culture towards sustainable cultures. ‘Scholars’, meaning people from all walks of life interested in sustainable cultural values, could enlist to a cultural institution that helps peoples form both cultures to find a suitable host culture for the scholar.

By drawing on expectations about what sustainable cultures would teach us, the picture shows a decreased amount of people concentrating in city’s and instead a more balanced distribution of people over the available surface of the planet, most notably, into environments with more diverse lifeforms, closer to food sources, closer to the perspective widening, mind soothing and healing forms our nature.






The Mushroom Speaks



Terence McKenna

I am old, older than thought in your species, which is itself fifty times older than your history. Though I have been on earth for ages I am from the stars. My home is no one planet, for many worlds scattered through the shining disc of the galaxy have conditions which allow my spores an opportunity for life. The mushroom which you see is the part of my body given to sex thrills and sun bathing, my true body is a fine network of fibers growing through the soil. These networks may cover acres and may have far more connections than the number in a human brain.

My mycelial network is nearly immortal–only the sudden toxification of a planet or the explosion of it’s parent star can wipe me out. By means impossible to explain because of certain misconceptions in your model of reality all my mycelial networks in the galaxy are in hyperlight communication through space and time.

The mycelial body is as fragile as a spider’s web but the collective
hypermind and memory is a vast historical archive of the career of evolving intelligence on many worlds in our spiral star swarm. Space, you see, is a vast ocean to those hardy life forms that have the ability to reproduce from spores, for spores are covered with the hardest organic substance known.

Across the aeons of time and space drift many spore forming life-forms in suspended animation for millions of years until contact is made with a suitable environment. Few such species are minded, only myself and my recently evolved near relatives have achieved the hyper-communication mode and memory capacity that makes us leading members in the community of galactic intelligence. How the hyper-communication mode operates is a secret which will not be lightly given to humans.

But the means should be obvious: it is the occurence of psilocybin and psilocin in the biosynthetic pathways of my living body that opens for me and my symbiots the vision screens to many worlds. You as an individual and Homo sapiens as a species are on the brink of the formation of a symbiotic relationship with my genetic material that will eventually carry humanity and earth into the galactic mainstream of the higher civilizations.

Since it is not easy for you to recognize other varieties of intelligence around you, your most advanced theories of politics and society have advanced only as far as the notion of collectivism. But beyond the cohesion of the members of a species into a single social organism there lie richer and even more baroque evolutionary possibilities. Symbiosis is one of these. Symbiosis is a relation of mutual dependence and positive benifits for both species involved.

Symbiotic relationships between myself and civilized forms of higher animals have been established many times and in many places throughout the long ages of my development. These relationships have been mutually useful; within my memory is the knowledge of hyperlight drive ships and how to build them. I will trade this knowledge for a free ticket to new worlds around suns younger and more stable than your own.

To secure an eternal existence down the long river of cosmic time, I again and again offer this agreement to higher beings and thereby have spread throughout the galaxy over the long millenia.

A mycelial network has no organs to move the world, no hands; but higher animals with manipulative abilities can become partners with the star knowledge within me and if they act in good faith, return both themselves and their humble mushroom teacher to the million worlds to which all citizens of our starswarm are heir.

— Taken from Psilocybin: The Magic Mushroom Growers Guide

Republished from: Lycaeum Entheogen Database

Think something new everyday

“You are an explorer, and you represent our species, and the greatest good you can do is to bring back a new idea, because our world is endangered by the absence of good ideas. Our world is in crisis because of the absence of consciousness.”

— Terence McKenna

I like to think something new everyday. I strife for it. I depend on it. When I don’t, I feel uncomfortable, bored and even afraid. Afraid that I reached the limits of my mind. So uncomfortable that I’ll start to itch. Bored with the thoughts of this day of which most of them I thought yesterday as well.

Yesterday I thought for the first time: Every thought about others is actually a thought about myself.

Today I thought for the first time: I experience more tension in advance of meeting friends than when meeting new people.

Especially today’s new thought is of interest to me: it has to do with my personal history, what I did at that moment and the context in which I was doing it.

It is a thought worthy of investigating. To me, it doesn’t matter if it is a pleasant thought. Wat is interesting to me is when it might be true. I find that most thoughts, however strange, unusual or uncomfortable, are true when I’ve found the right context for them.

To have a new thought every day, I let go of censoring myself. I let my thoughts run in unfamiliar directions in order to see where they lead.

“Half the time you think your thinking you’re actually listening.”

— Terence McKenna

What are Digital Psychedelics?

Digital Psychedelics is an idea extrapolated upon the following notions. That psychedelics are the pre-historic catalyst that transformed us from smart apes to seeking humans, a theory by Terence and Dennis McKenna. That biological evolution is being lapsed by mental revolution; that man is not the endpoint of the building up of complexity, but that complexity has taken a leap from the biological world to the mental world. That we’re not so much looking for artificial intelligence as well as for artificial consiousness (AC). That the internet already is its physical body, like the brain is for the mind. Resulting in the idea that digital psychedelics might catalyse this planetary brain into a universal mind. Continue reading “What are Digital Psychedelics?”

Hoe langer we ons voorstellen

Hoe langer we ons voorstellen dat we op deze planeet willen leven, hoe zuiniger we er op zijn. Ons gebrek aan toekomstvisie zal dan ook ten grondslag liggen aan onze huidige omgang met de natuurlijke wereld.
Als de voorstellingen van grootse toekomsten net zo snel gegroeid waren als onze beheersing van materie dan hadden we nu een gedeeld perspectief dat minstens 10.000 jaar de toekomst in blikte.
Heidegger, is mij verteld, observeert dat de mens niet buiten zichzelf kan denken. Alles gedacht hebbende; het heeft uiteindelijk het menselijke perspectief in zich. Ongelooflijk om voor te stellen wat er dan allemaal binnen het menselijke voorstellingsvermogen ligt. Maar zo’n perspectief, verbonden aan jezelf, heeft ook z’n nadelen. Ik kan me voorstellen dat ons toekomstbeeld niet snel groter wordt dan het aantal jaren dat we verwachten dat onze lichamen te leven hebben. Ons toekomstperspectief is vanuit de eerste persoon gezien gebonden aan de eindigheid van het lichaam. Het is hier echter niet tot beperkt.
Een geestverruimende oefening bevrijd de voorstellingen uit de kleinschaligheid van het individu. Dit is nóg een argument om een regelmatige beoefening van geestverruiming je eigen te maken: je denkt makkelijker na over het leven van je kinderen, je kleinkinderen, je achterkleinkinderen en de kinderen van de kinderen van je achterkleinkinderen en de eeuwen en eeuwen waarin nakomelingen van jou dit universum met jou en elkaar delen. Een beeld van ‘starflights’ komt bij me op. Boven de wolken en onder de sterren vliegen we de toekomst in.
Ik moet zeggen dat dit in zichzelf een zeer geestverruimende bezigheid en methode is: vooruit denken.